Heart vs Mind

It's so painful watching the interview of Ris Low on RazorTV - the way she speaks and answers the questions posed by the ST interviewer. For Boomz sake, stop drawing unhealthy attention to yourself by agreeing to do these interviews and invite even more media scrutiny, public gossip and mocking than you already have. You are infamous enough, unless of course, if you enjoy the attention, then I've no comments.

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Work this week has been a breeze so far. Awesome.

Brother's booking out from OCS this Saturday. And I'm looking forward to his return and for some sibling bonding with him over the weekend. It's been 2 weeks plus since he entered OCS and he's turning into a fine tanned hunky young man when I visited him with my parents last Sunday. Good for him, and his female friends he hangs out with. Haha.

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When it comes to matters of the heart, all logical reasoning fails. No matter how hard one tries to shelve the feelings away and use logic to assess and correct the situation, emotions end up preceding the mind's logical reasoning as they are stirred up from events involving a special someone.

I think I'm swaying. Oh wells.

On a random note, if I do have my own house one day, I would like to have a mini bar and a huge kitchen with a good oven in my home, so I can whip up a meal and invite friends over for dinner and drinks. There's no need to worry about reservations, battle with the crowds and noise at pubs outside, can just chill out in the comfort of home where it's quiet enough to hear myself and have a proper conversation with friends.

List of things to do that I have been procrastinating about, and hopefully will do when I find the time:

1. Driving license
2. Plan trip to Japan next year
3. Read the books that people gave and lent me over the years, in addition the 60 dollars' worth of books I bought from Kinokuniya earlier this year.

And the list continues to stay the same or extend as things get busier in the last quarter of the year. Oh bite me.

Quelqu'un M'a Dit (Someone told me)

I’m told that our lives aren’t worth much,
They pass like an instant, like wilting roses.
I’m told that time slipping by is a bastard
Making its coat of our sorrows.
Yet someone told me…

That you still loved me
Someone told me…
That you still loved me.
Well, could that be possible?

I’m told that fate makes fun of us,
That it gives us nothing and promises everything,
When happiness seems to be within our reach,
We reach out and find ourselves like fools.
Yet someone told me…

That you still loved me
Someone told me…
That you still loved me.
Well, could that be possible?

Well, could that be possible?

So who said that you still loved me?
I don’t remember any more, it was late at night,
I can still hear the voice, but I can no longer see the face,
“He loves you, it’s secret, don’t tell him I told you.”
You see, someone told me

That you still loved me
Did someone really tell me?
That you still loved me
Well, could that be possible?

I’m told that our lives aren’t worth much,
Passing in an instant, like wilting roses,
I’m told that time slipping by is a bastard,
Making its coat of our sadnesses.

That you still loved me
Someone told me…
That you still loved me.
Well, could that be possible?

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One of my favourite soundtracks from '500 Days of Summer'.

I loooove the movie. It's an offbeat romantic comedy about a woman who doesn't believe true love exists, and the young man who falls for her. I found it refreshingly different from the usual romantic comedies I've watched.. it has a mix of cartoon, art and musical. Very funny narration and characters. I thought the movie was really cute.. I give it 4 out of 5 stars. Enough said.

Last week, I was feeling so frustrated with the management and the way they worked, which hindered my progress towards my project deadline that was drawing near. On top of that, I had to deal with one of the upper management's unnecessary criticisms of my work and insistence to do things her way despite reasonable justifications to the designs I did and following my boss's preferred styles. And it wasn't nice to point fingers back at my boss for the way things are done, so I held back while she reprimanded me and my colleague. Lots of time and effort were wasted on the designs I did, including one which one of them suggested and that was so difficult to do in the short of amount of time given (I had to show them on the day itself). All because it was not communicated that they will be doing it. And her e-mails, which weren't very nice, made us appear incompetent and as though we were wasting their precious time, when in reality of things, they were wasting everybody's time.

There was a whole lot of other shits that happened but I shan't elaborate on them. Anyway, it was one sucky and emo week at work that I was near tears on the way home on Friday.

I figured life's too short to keep letting these ridiculous people affect me at work. Just focus on getting the work done and f*** them. I'm going to hang in there for one more year before I make the next move.

Level 2: Kill them all.

I'm experiencing more 'just kill me now' moments this week.

I returned to work on Tuesday after a long holiday weekend, relaxed and happy. To my dismay, I found out that a project deadline got pushed forward. Plus, a handful of people in the upper management are going away on a long leave. This meant that I have to finish everything asap before the week ends for my work to get approved. I'm frustrated with the short amount of time given to do my design, and when the quality of my work is limited by time. I'm more frustrated of the fact that I'm slogging away and clocking additional hours to rush through my work just so the people from the upper management can approve before going away on their long leave. F@%$. I'm really annoyed with a guy whom I'm working with on something else who thinks he knows all, including marketing, when he knows no shit about it and insists on what he wants and likes.

Hell I want to smack him.